Sunday, May 29, 2005
why issit that now i can cry so easily? or say tear so easily? everytime i think of the situation im in now makes me sad and i dont know what to do. it is now mutually understood that i cant go out, not supposed to use the comp, not supposed to talk on the phone for much, and i have to study ALL the time. no rest time was suggested, no play included. although i didnt ask whether i can go out, i know i wont be allowed to one. i just want to avoid the shout "NO!", like what i would hear during the times i asked whether i can use the computer.

but this time i dont care and just turned on the comp and my mum came to ask when i will stop using it. i said 1130. so i think i have to go off soon. okay goodnight.

i shouldnt be emotionally weak. right?


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